nobody - 19:50:00
Monday, 12 July 2010
i just realized that in this world, i have nobody to really turn to.
nobody really understands how i truly feel.
& it seems like i'm always in the wrong. yes i'm wrong.
people whom i thought would understand me didn't understand me & didn't try to.
whatever i have to defend myself appear to be just all junk excuses.
whatever i'm trying to hold on desperately to all seemed to be just useless crap.
whatever i'm insisting on are just insensible shit.
there's nobody whom i can really really confide in. & it seems like there's nobody who is bothered to let me confide in.
in the end, i'm still alone.
what more can i say? there's no one who really wants to listen. & even if there's anyone who is willing to listen, what more can they do, what more can they say?
i guess i'm fine being alone. i guess i'm used to being alone.
but why does it hurt this bad that i felt like i'm breaking apart? )':
just when i thought i have almost the whole world in my hand, i opened up my hand & found nothing at all.